Mummy guilt can hit at any moment. That feeling that if only you had… then your child could/would…. For me it generally arises when work and family collide. Those shows I have to miss, school trips I can’t attend, friends that can’t be invited back for tea and paperwork I some how misplaced, all because I’m not a stay at home mum.
It’s easy to tell people that I’m a better mother because I work. It’s easy to explain to others that I find great fulfilment in my work which enables me to give more to my family. However it’s sometimes hard to tell that to myself.
One of the things I admire greatly about the woman in Proverbs 31 is her relationship with her family. She’s a busy business woman, who always seems to have a new project on the go, and yet her family clearly don’t feel neglected by her.
Her children rise up and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praises her: “Many daughters have done well, but you excel them all.” Proverbs 31:28-29
Sometimes when I’m rushing out to an evening meeting, or taking a work call in the midst of playtime, I wonder if my kids would call me blessed. When my head is full of work, and my husband just wants to talk, I’d question if he’d say I was excelling!
However there are times and seasons for everything. I really value the fact that my family support me and encourage me in my work. They understand when things get extra busy and do all they can to pick up the things I can’t carry. But that just makes it sweeter when work is put on hold and family is the only priority.
On Monday we fly off for a 2 week family holiday in the sun. We’ve enjoyed planning and preparing together, and now the reality is just around the corner. There are new things to discover and memories to be made. The children are growing up so fast I want to treasure every moment with them and take a thousand photos. More than that, I’m looking forward to walking hand in hand with my husband as we talk and dream about the next season we face.
So forgive me if I don’t write a post for a couple of weeks but I’m praying we have lousy wifi and we can’t connect with the outside world!